ORIGINAL JOURNAL ENTRIES
Wow, what a day! I’ve never felt so perfect in all my life! Everything has been enhanced 10 fold it seems. My senses are heightened to the max. Tastes are even better and I thought it wasn’t possible.
Putting in lower path and really enjoying life! Having lunch-
Everything makes more sense then ever before. It’s as if the puzzle has been put together today….
It’s still here! Not filling me up- but here. I’ve been compelled to get up @ 4:30 over the last few days, (several actually), and have a few hours of quiet time to myself-HUGE!
I’m completely filled with joy today- I came downstairs and had a cup of coffee and checked the news then began editing and writing in my journal. The more I recall and write the better and more mentally coordinated I feel.
Lots to do today so better get to it. Will study Bible later.
WHO I WAS
Is God real? Is there really a supreme being that created Heaven and earth and everything in between? These questions used to exist in my mind, my child, but not anymore. Not since Arizona. What you are about to read is a no punches pulled account of how the Holy Spirit has been poured out to me by God, which was and continues to be nothing short of miraculous. I say “no punches pulled” because it is very raw. I wanted to keep it as original as possible so I did very little editing. I hope you can forgive my writing ignorance and stay the course because it will be more than worth it in the end.
I originally didn’t write this with anything in mind other to be able to reflect back on it one day and figure out what had happened, but then it just grew into something much bigger. It grew like, well, the mustard seed, (you’ll have to read the parable of the mustard seed if you aren’t sure what I mean).
As you know, I am NOT by trade a writer or theologian. You should also know that I am not a self proclaimed evangelist or looking to “save” you, (or anyone for that matter). In fact, I now know by what has happened to me that only God can really save. After all, no one did or said anything to me to begin my process of salvation, at least, that is, within the span of time that it actually began. But maybe the seed was planted long ago. For this reason I have included a few chapters of my earliest spiritual history. Plus, I know I would have liked to know more about my dad’s early history, and I figure you might be just a bit like me, so I threw some in. This insight into who I was will also serve as a contrast to who it is God has changed me into.
As you also know, outside of being a former professional baseball player with a few days played at the major league level, I am really just a “normal” human being. There is really nothing special about me, but, for reasons only known by God, I’ve been transformed from the inside out. But why? This is what this is truly all about, why me and why now? In my confused state I said that a lot, so please bear with me on that as well.
You have to understand this first and foremost. when this first started happening I didn’t have even the slightest idea what was going on, it was all happening so fast and decisively and I felt like I didn’t have a choice. Thankfully for the sake of my sanity, I have since received many revelations to help explain what was happening, the most recent of which has at least explained to me what I have become and who I now am.
I know now according to scripture that I am one of His elect, a bond slave to Him. I know this to be true because I wake every day wanting to do only His will, and I absolutely love it! I am a witness to His awesome power and I have no choice but to witness to anyone The Father brings my way. My cup is truly overflowing with His love!
Although awesome and beautiful, and even sometimes supernatural, my transformation hasn’t been easy, however. This new life has come with many challenges, some much more profoundly difficult than others. I now know what He meant when Jesus said that He did not come to bring peace, but division in Luke 12:51,(I suggest you look that one up as well).
Anyway, let’s get on with it shall we? I very truly hope that from reading this you can understand that our God is a great and awesome God and that He loves you even more than I do.